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Good morning everyone
This is take 2π¬ wish me luck
I owe a lot of you an explaination. At least as to why I can't seem to keep my promises.
The situation, the hole I am digging here in my reality, is not something someone just... talks about...
I'm aware what may happen by sharing, especially so publicly... I said it from the start that this spot on the internet is for me. This is my page and if my bs is something you don't want to read, then please don't. I'm not twisting your arm. I do this for my sanity... if there is anything left.
My gut keeps telling me to start recording, to start checking in with people, to keep proof... if I don't that would truly be the stupidest thing I've ever done... or not done?π€
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This post is nowhere near what I had written last night, guys... I'm sorry.
Raw emotions are gone, I am left a shell. I don't know what to say... My walls have been rebuilt; chains and traps are at the ready; my heart is frozen, crystalized, and guarded once more...
Unfortunately, I do not have the passion I did last night to save myself and spit some truth... and this is why people like myself get manipulated and taken advantage of. We do not hold ourselves in high regards. We seek to please, we seek your attention and acknowledgement, we seek to make others happy even when it means destroying ourselves...
This world we live in breeds so much anger and selfishness and ignorance. We are products of our environment... I am a rabbit living in a wolf based world... And no matter how hard I try I just... I can't compete with the wolf...
Even if the wolf had pity in me... It's only a matter of time before starvation takes hold and I am eaten...
My circadian rhythm is so phucked!π«
Monday, got three hours of sleep and functioned fine; Tuesday, six hours and was groggy; Wednesday, five hours, woke up hella early, did shiz, took a nap, was fine; last night, eight hours and so far so good. But wtf?
I bought a Screamie Meanie so I could get my shiz together, yet Ive managed to figure out the button sequence needed for the alarm to stop sounding, all while Im asleep...
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It would seem my sleep cycle is ruled by no oneπ
Lame post I know, but take a second to think about your body and cycle. Are you getting enough Zzzs? Or maybe too many?π
The more you know~
Day 3, 4, 5 & 6 of my ππ½ recomendations:
#3 Train to Busan, Peninsula, & Seoul Station - They are in Korean and a part of my favorites. Good series to watch at least once. New batch of people each time. Fun fact: choreographer for the film was obsessed with perfecting the movements for the creatures. Definitely brings on them feels in the end. Lastly, omg that train car fight sceneπ€π§‘ππ§‘π€ Peni, is meh, not gonna lie. Seoul Station is very fun and dark for an animationπ
#4 Texas Chainsaw Massacre~
A classic. Shout out to my babes Stretch and Chop Top in part 2π Biel omg I love and hate thee, but never tire of watching you run in terror. Classic American family values, must watch with everyoneπ The 2000s brought the gore and sound. Dont forget your popcorn πΏπ·πΏ
#5 The Exorcist, 2, 3 &the starter packπ
This is where it all started for me. I remember being in my living room behind the couch, eyes peering over the top, as this demon lass throws furniture across her room with her mind, and masturbates with a crucifix...
Yeah. It took me a while to finish that film in full. Truly a skin crawler mixed with the false comfort of God. And the following movies just open up a whole new batch of trauma. Watch, watch, watchπ€π§‘π€π§‘π€
#6 The Hills Have Eyesπ
This universe is in my top five; I am crazy in love with all of it. The cruelty of man and subtle signs of politics laid in the series makes you confused on who to feel sorry for. Shout out to my biggest boo in all of horror, Robert Joy/Lizard. I know, I know, I need helpπ the guy is tiny by all accounts yet he is the most wild and ferocious man, ooofπ Michael Berryman, nuff said. Very good. And them short skirts in the 70sπππ
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P.s. I love movie posters, can you tell?ππΏ
Good morning everyone.
I am fine. Thank you for all the concern.
I am sorry to have disappeared... things in life... they are always unexpected and no amount of planning can prepare you for how other people will react...
With that said... my patience has grown and I am starting to regain my freedom once more. Seven months... so close.
My depression got the best of me last week and then topped with someone else's bad time, etc. Things just were not looking good.
The more time I spend discovering myself (because I have always been living up to other's expectations and never creating my owm foundation) I see just how much time ive wasted... it's okay. No one gets it right the first time, but now I'm on a time crunch and...
One day... one of these days I'll stop being so ambiguous and we can have conversations like adults again...
Xoxo Booboo
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